I see him,
Even when he is not there
I feel him,
Even when the air around me stands still
I know his voice
Out of the millions ringing near
I know the design of his face
Even though I’ve never touched it.
Tell me stories no one has ever heard
He talks a lot
But I hear what no one else does
He is the popular kid,
I’m the geek.
Everyone knows him,
I don’t think I even know myself.
He can charm anyone,
It takes me time to warm up to someone.
Polar opposites, Two peas of a different pod.
I don’t exist, he thrives,
Is there a future to this tale
Or is it destined to be an eternal flame
That will never distinguish,
But only on one side.
Sparks never flew on the other.
Maybe ten years down the line,
It’ll be different,
I’ll be healed from something that
Never existed in the first place.
I’ll maybe even find myself,
And look back thinking,
Maybe I did deserve better
And will get better
I’ll find love, so great,
This will cease to ever exist again.
I’ll find someone, who’ll make me realize
My potentialities, my strengths
I’ll realize who I used to be
I’ll be me again.