Don’t Stop

See the lights,

As I walk through the dark

See the silhouettes, as I embark

On a journey that scares me

A journey which will take me

To a place I have never been before

To a place I don’t know

New places, new faces

Some I may like, some I may not

Experiences worth a life

Memories worth a million

Life offers so much to us

But we aren’t ready to see

Beyond the dark,

Beyond our insecurities

People will be jealous

They will envy you

But trust me,

When you have your eyes

Set on your goal

When you have eyes

Only for success

Forget people

Not a single soul will be able to stop you

The light at the end of the tunnel always comes

Keep going.

Don’t stop.

Just keep going..

Me Again

I see him,

Even when he is not there

I feel him,

Even when the air around me stands still

I know his voice

Out of the millions ringing near

I know the design of his face

Even though I’ve never touched it.

His eyes

Tell me stories no one has ever heard

He talks a lot

But I hear what no one else does

He is the popular kid,

I’m the geek.

Everyone knows him,

I don’t think I even know myself.

He can charm anyone,

It takes me time to warm up to someone.

Polar opposites, Two peas of a different pod.

I don’t exist, he thrives,

Is there a future to this tale

Or is it destined to be an eternal flame

That will never distinguish,

But only on one side.

Sparks never flew on the other.

Maybe ten years down the line,

It’ll be different,

I’ll be healed from something that

Never existed in the first place.

I’ll maybe even find myself,

And look back thinking,

Maybe I did deserve better

And will get better

I’ll find love, so great,

This will cease to ever exist again.

I’ll find someone, who’ll make me realize

My potentialities, my strengths

I’ll realize who I used to be

Before.

I’ll be me again.

What I Can Do

They call me the quiet one

But when I speak no one listens

They call me the shy one

But when I try, no one notices

They call me insensitive

That’s because once I was asked to not take things

Too seriously.

They say I’m never worried

But once I was in tears because

I couldn’t stop being.

They say I’m not a good friend

That’s because no one lets me trust them without me

Getting hurt.

I am a wallflower

I like staying in the corner

I may not be the life of the party

But I would certainly not like to lose myself

So that others are entertained.

I’m criticized, I’m judged

I live in a world,

Who isn’t that accepting.

I still get up

To face the day

I still don’t stop

Because the night is at bay.

I have a life

That won’t stop because I have feelings.

Its my destiny,

I will design it.

If not me, then who

Will do, what I can do

 

We Are All Damaged

I can hear the footfalls,

I sit crumpled here.

I can hear the birds flying by,

I feel broken here.

Dawn is approaching, light is coming

All I see is the darkness inflating.

The bulb flickers above,

And so does my heart

He’s standing at the door.

With eyes so sore

Lack of sleep.

Lack of hope.

I hear him move

I back away

But how much further

Can a solid wall take you anyway?

I can now smell his breath.

It reeks of substance I know so well

‘Get up sweetheart, its time for school’

Slurs a voice, which is etched in my mind

I smile up at him, and get out of bed

His eyes unaware of the dark circles

Taken permanent residence under mine

I  feel the smack, I walk away

From his hand, into the halls

The booming laugh, a record tape.

This is my reality, my life

Escaping from it, is like believing in Paradise.

I step out of the house

With a smile plastered on

We are all damaged inside

Just don’t let them see.

Put on a show

And walk onto the stage..

 

The Versatile Blogger Award

Thank you Cherylene for nominating me for the Versatile Blogger Award. 

The Versatile Blogger Award is an award given by bloggers to other up-and-coming bloggers. It is designed to encourage new bloggers to keep up the good work and help people to discover new blogs.

The Rules:

  • Thank the person who nominated you and leave a link to their blog.
  • List the rules and display the Versatile Blogger Award logo in your post and/or your blog.
  • Share seven facts about yourself.
  • Nominate up to 15 bloggers of your choice and let them know.

Seven facts about me:

  1. I love reading books
  2. I am a horror movie fanatic.
  3. I lived in Dubai for 12 years of my life.
  4. I have a keen interest in photography
  5. I aspire to live in New York City someday
  6. I love writing, and this blog has only increased that love for it even more
  7. I love to travel

I have chosen to nominate some blogs I have not previously nominated. Each of these bloggers brings something unique to their readers that I respect and admire. I would like to take this opportunity to encourage them to continue doing what they do.  We all have something special to offer.

My nominees are:

1.Letters to life

2.Thoughts of Words

3. summer’s blog

4.bexoxo

 

Just One Of Those Days

When I’m down

And nothing seems right

The world is against you

Your future is out of sight

 

Your laugh is fading

You smile is hiding

You stop talking

All you feel like doing is crying

You don’t understand

Its just a day

Not your life

It will pass

Look beyond the tidal waves

See the ship at the horizon

Look on the bright side

Even when some days,

You have to look harder

People try

To bring you down

People try

To only see a frown

You try

To keep your head high

You try

Even if some days you have to lie

Don’t let anyone feel satisfied

With leaving you in this state

Put on a show

Work in silence

Let the success smack them in the face

And that’s how only you are satisfied

 

These days will come and go

Opportunities won’t

The only thing bigger than fear

Is Regret

So let yourself cry

Sit in silence for a while

Then pick yourself up

And walk for miles

To a place

That is only for you

 

Life is short

Don’t waste it

After all

It’s just one of those days

 

 

 

Still Believe In Love

I lie here in this dark room

The warmth of the bed staying longer than he did

He walked away before I could even say

How much he meant, how much he didn’t 

The night at the carnival was beautiful

Lights hiding the darkness that we were

The roller coaster went up 

But all we did was fall down 

I learnt of his deeds or the lack of them
He questioned my every move 

Even when it was all for him

Why didn’t he see? 

That he was all for me

But when it came to who I was to him, 

The silence filled the void he left behind

I loved his words, his smile, the way he felt like paradise

He hated my guts, my will, the way I earned more than him

One day it all changed, or I guess it was before then

My belief and innocence kept us strong 

But they were the very things that were so wrong

He was toxic, I was bliss, he was a drug while I was his medicine

He told me what I was since day one

I twisted his words, till I was done

With his actions, with his ego

I tried to hold on, till I couldn’t anymore

I now get up and look next to me

To see a body filled with life as much as a stone

The light had left, a soul had gone

To a place mentioned in not many songs

They enter to take him away,

They look at me feeling sorry

They think it was the overdose that killed him 

But I know it was the under dose, the emptiness that really did

I walk out, not knowing where to go

I still believe there is something better out there

Believe there is something good

Even with all I have gone through

I still believe in love

Here’s To Those Who Dream

To those who have the power to carry a vision. For those who have the will to chase after what they believe in. To those who are not scared of the outcome but are excited for the process. Here’s to those who want to fail, who want to be humiliated, who want to be broken, who want to fall only to stand up again.

These people are the ones you should be scared of, because they bring creativity in mundane things. They think differently and are always brimming with idea.

They are awake till the wee hours of the night. They find beauty in the silence of that time. It’s for poets, photographers, writers, painters, artists…

Dreamers are fools they say. Magic is fantasy they say. Then how is it that Philippe Petit walked on a thin line of wire between the twin towers? How did Adbul Kalam become the 11th President on India when he just hailed from a small village of Rameswaram?

In this world everyone wants magical solutions to all their problems yet they refuse to believe in magic…

Dream on… Believe… They say sky is the limit, then how are there footprints on the moon….
Here’s to those who dream!

Being Good Enough

Sometimes, well most of the times, I find myself comparing myself to my friends, my siblings and well most of the people around me. I can feel myself struggling to do something worthwhile because I feel if I don’t wouldn’t be remembered. I won’t be able to leave a mark on this world.

It’s just like how Blair feels when she is with Serena. A Darth Vadar next to a Sunshine Barbie. Your try so hard. You do all things right. You try to grasp all the opportunities that are in front of you. You push through that shyness and fear thinking it will all be worth it. But then all that courage, all that confidence goes down the drain when you don’t achieve it or when someone does much better than you. How do you learn to live with yourself knowing no matter what you do, someone will always do better or be better…

I have had to live with this all my life, being the younger sibling, being the inferior best friend. I realized even by changing countries, this fact is never going to stop itself from latching on to my shoulders. You may call me insecure or say learn to love yourself. But this will help me for those five minutes. But what happens when you switch of that motivational video and turn the lights and lie down after a tiresome day. Those thoughts come back don’t they?

Just by someone saying you shouldn’t compare or that you should love yourself it doesn’t just magically come into you. You learn through experiences and acceptance. You learn through focusing on yourself. If you ever feel something or even a bit of what I have mentioned, it is time you start talking or stop associating with those people who try so hard, whether knowingly or unknowingly to put you down. You are the master of your own fate and all the things that happen to you. Trust me I learnt it the hard way.

If you care for those people despite of them making you feel this way, talk to them, they might be able to help you out in someway or another. Or if not, break your ties with them. Its the only way for you to remain sane. Its the only way for that relationship to not turn toxic or unhealthy.

I know now that all those insecurities haven’t gone yet, but I am working my way towards it. I am working towards where I want to be. Those people are still there. They are still outshining me. But there is only one difference now. They might be the best, but I am working towards making myself better than what I was yesterday and to me that is the best.

An Awakening

When we have to make fire in darkest times, what do we do? We rub two stones together. We rub them so hard that sparks ignite and a fire flares up to life. And what do we do to keep the fire going? We throw sticks and stones into it. But all it does is rise higher and higher and emerge out as strong as ever! 

Be like that fire!